There is a Time for Every Season Under Heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1

As the years have gathered my days, I've grown. I have come to a point in my life where I truly enjoy God! I let Him love me and I love Him back! I let Him comfort me and I then go and comfort others. I don't blame God any more but, I see Him in everything! The journey IS life, we will never arrive as long as we walk on this earth so I've learned to see each day, each moment as a chapter in my life's journal whether it be a great day or a dark season, God is in it with me.

I'm also aware that the enemy is always prowling about with one mission in mind, to rob me of my joy and to get me to doubt God. There are times when I lend ear to the whispered lies and I become ensnared. Not for the long lengths of time as when I was younger and thought God was responsible for pain and suffering. I've grown in the grace and knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and I find myself falling much less and for shorter periods of time. That's because I read God's Word each day and I have a personal relationship with Him!

I have struggled with worthlessness because of the things that happened to me in my life. Growing and healing is a process and He is teaching me about many things that I look forward to sharing! This blog is a place for my thoughts to find their voice! I hope you enjoy visiting here just as if you were going to a friends house.

Jesusdeevah is a name I chose because it reminds me that I am set apart, special, precious and treasured by my Father in Heaven! So much that He sent His only beloved Son, Jesus, to suffer and die for me! Then, on the third day He rose from the grave and conquered sin and death so that I could be with Him forever! The lie is that I'm worthless, the truth is that I am worth dying for!

John 3:16,17... For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life! God did not send His Son into the world to condemn it but to save it!

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Sunday, July 24, 2011

Dee-pression

I have just emerged from a deep depression due to my my circumstances being very challenging right now and way to lengthy to even attempt explaining. It's been something that I have suffered with all my life. It is a gift from God when He formed me in my mother's womb (Psalm 139). I don't like it at all but God has put this thorn in my mind to allow me to be exactly who I am and who I"m becoming. Sensitive, sympathetic, empathetic, caring, deep, sincere, honest, candid, available, etc... Now that wasn't easy for me to say those nice things about me because I also suffer from low self-esteem. That is not from God! I chose through the years to listen to a very negative degrating inner voice. It started when I was 13 and my mom died. The enemy (satan) held my mind in bondage and convinced me that I was not worth living for. Needlesstosay, I was not yet born again in the Spirit of God so I was an easy target! I listened to all the lies and adopted them as my mind-set and identity. This is the pivot point in many peoples lives where their inner child stops growing. They may grow in physical years but they are imprisoned mentally and emotionally because of some event in their life where they became vulnerable and broken.

Praise be to God that He chose me in my late teens and I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior ! That event was the beginning of my life journey with Jesus. Life did not become easy but I knew I wasn't alone anymore! The stronghold that satan had on my identity became God's priority and He is still helping me to peel the layers. Sure, God can change anything in an instant but the problem is He needs a willing heart! You may think you want to grow and move on but if you really meditate on it you'll find that change is scary and not something that humans generally jump into with both feet first or at all for that fact! God can only take the knots out of our character if we allow Him. Often, it is even a case of panic that halts our change, like a lifeguard trying to rescue a drowning victim that is hysterical. God goes at the pace we allow Him to go. At times, as we mature in our faith, He will strongly encourage us to move forward by allowing an uncomfortable situation in our life. A great example of this would be a loving and wise mother eagle who begins to put pine needles into the nest to strongly encourage the eaglets to move on and fly!

There are times, especially now that I'm a more mature Christian woman, that I move out of my comfort zone of self-pity and victimhood with full trust in God and His plan for me. But, there are also times when I listen to the enemy whispering in my ear that I'm not special to God and that God is mean. The big difference now is that I run to the truth (my bible) and read aloud the promises and truths of God's Word so that the enemy can hear me! I also tell him, "Get behind me satan! In Jesus Name! Peddle your lies somewhere else because my mind is not your playground anymore"!

I've learned how important it is to have a support system to be there for you while you're in that temporary, irrational and vulnerable state. I have true friends and family that I know I'm safe with. Also, my church and the woman's group there.People are the arms, eyes, hands...of God! You may be the only Jesus some people meet! That's why it's so important to let God use you to be a support for others too.

I hope this blog will be a safe place for you to get encouragement, grow in the grace and knowledge of Christ and even ask for prayer. For confidentiality just email me from the link on this page or I also encourage you to share comments, stories, praise reports, epiphanys, blessings and wisdom by clicking on Comments.

When we are housing God in our bodies, minds and hearts by asking Him to come dwell in us as our Savior and Lord, we are SEALED with the Holy Spirit! Just as a wine bottle is corked then dipped into wax to seal it. Without having asked Christ to enter into your life, forgive your sins and admitting that only by His blood are we saved (being born-again), we are unsealed and thus vulnerable to deception, lies and thoughts and actions that keep us in bondage! Freedom is only found in Jesus. What makes Him so cool to me is that He not only revealed His divine nature to us through scripture but He actually revealed himself in His human nature by leaving His Father's side in heaven and took on our human flesh and walked among us!!!! Then, fully knowing what the sacrifice would be (himself), He died for us, so we could have freedom and eternity with Him!

In the book of John in the New Testament, chapter 15, verses 12,13 it reads, "My (Jesus) command is this: Love eachother as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends". Yes, the God of the universe wants to be friends with you! Now, you just need to decide if you want to be friends with Him. Some of you have already made that decision but for those who have not..He's waiting for you.

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