I wrote this post prior to leaving for my N.Y. vacation.....
I awoke again to breathtaking back pain! I'm scheduled to leave for my vacation to upstate NY and I've been down with this for three days now. I swore that no matter what happened in my life that I was going to take it one day at a time. That's really been helping a lot since I used to carry the past, the future and the current day all at once and not only was I overwhelmed but so were those who had to be around me. One day at a time, is all God wants us to handle. He never said that He would give us strength to carry yesterday or tomorrow, just today, and that is enough! Our burden's become to heavy when we wander outside of God's plan for us. Fear of tomorrow, pain from the past, are places that are over or not here yet and that's why He doesn't want us to go there! There are days though, that I see no redeeming qualities in, and it's days without purpose (at least to me) that are the worst. My isolation and pain seem to make my days look so small and empty that you can't find a crumb of vision in them sometimes. The last two days were just back pain and I couldn't see anything good or positive in them at all. But then, today happened and.....
I had the most wonderful morning, even though I was in physical pain. Within moments of waking up, my phone beeped with a message. That always cheers me up because I know that someone is thinking of me :) It was a comment on one of my posts from my Daughter in law and it was just sweet and touching! Isn't it funny how the smallest thing can mean the world to someone! I chose to thank God immediately for sending me that blessing exactly when He did because it set the tone for my day, and that was a much better tone than the one I was going to use, which was pain and isolation, again! My son and his wife ended up calling me and we had such a wonderful talk about so many things! They are looking forward to seeing me and for the kids to see me and spend time with me! They just recently moved back to the USA from being stationed overseas in Belgium for four years, and North Dakota prior to that. Their story is one full of trials and miracles that most young couples couldn't even begin to understand or deal with, yet they did, with grace and courage.
I am home from N.Y. now...
Well, my back pain lasted up until 2 days before I had to leave! I couldn't do anything because I couldn't bend over! I felt so helpless and I did not want to go because I was in pain and I wasn't ready or packed. I had a few outbursts and complained right up to the morning of my departure. Two hours prior to my flight leaving, I called my niece in Virginia crying because I was so weak and I didn't sleep the night before so I was asking her what I should do. She calmly told me to do what was best for me and that no matter what I decided, she loved me. The comfort of knowing that I had a choice and I wouldn't be persecuted for it really relaxed me and I decided I would just go as far as my body would take me. If it meant turning around in Detroit during my lay over then that's what I would do. Unfortunately (just kidding), my sister was traveling with me and she was not about to travel alone so I guess I just pretended in my mind that I could leave if I wanted to. My sissy just kept plugging along from one point to the next and that's what got me to N.Y.
We arrived pretty late but my brother and sister in law picked us up in her Mary Kay pink Cadillac and we were back to their house by 12:30am. I don't even remember that night after that point. Anyway, the point of my story is that I got to see all my loved ones and especially my son, his wife and my two grand-children! I was in a lot of physical pain but I just kept medicated and went from one point to the next and then to the next, until each experience connected into a journey and each moment filled me up with memories! My husband always says, "How do you eat an elephant?...One bite at a time!" and the whole time I was away I just kept chanting, "Inch by inch every thing's a cinch!" Every time I'm struggling with my pain, I ask the Lord, "How am I going to get through this?!" and He always says, "One moment at a time my little darling, one moment at a time."
I guess the moral of this story is that you will get out of life exactly how much you take from it. Whether you charge into it with energy or crawl through it in pain, it doesn't matter how you do it. As long as you do it, you will learn, grow, laugh, cry, acquire and give, and that is just life....... one moment at a time.
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I had the most wonderful morning, even though I was in physical pain. Within moments of waking up, my phone beeped with a message. That always cheers me up because I know that someone is thinking of me :) It was a comment on one of my posts from my Daughter in law and it was just sweet and touching! Isn't it funny how the smallest thing can mean the world to someone! I chose to thank God immediately for sending me that blessing exactly when He did because it set the tone for my day, and that was a much better tone than the one I was going to use, which was pain and isolation, again! My son and his wife ended up calling me and we had such a wonderful talk about so many things! They are looking forward to seeing me and for the kids to see me and spend time with me! They just recently moved back to the USA from being stationed overseas in Belgium for four years, and North Dakota prior to that. Their story is one full of trials and miracles that most young couples couldn't even begin to understand or deal with, yet they did, with grace and courage.
I am home from N.Y. now...
Well, my back pain lasted up until 2 days before I had to leave! I couldn't do anything because I couldn't bend over! I felt so helpless and I did not want to go because I was in pain and I wasn't ready or packed. I had a few outbursts and complained right up to the morning of my departure. Two hours prior to my flight leaving, I called my niece in Virginia crying because I was so weak and I didn't sleep the night before so I was asking her what I should do. She calmly told me to do what was best for me and that no matter what I decided, she loved me. The comfort of knowing that I had a choice and I wouldn't be persecuted for it really relaxed me and I decided I would just go as far as my body would take me. If it meant turning around in Detroit during my lay over then that's what I would do. Unfortunately (just kidding), my sister was traveling with me and she was not about to travel alone so I guess I just pretended in my mind that I could leave if I wanted to. My sissy just kept plugging along from one point to the next and that's what got me to N.Y.
We arrived pretty late but my brother and sister in law picked us up in her Mary Kay pink Cadillac and we were back to their house by 12:30am. I don't even remember that night after that point. Anyway, the point of my story is that I got to see all my loved ones and especially my son, his wife and my two grand-children! I was in a lot of physical pain but I just kept medicated and went from one point to the next and then to the next, until each experience connected into a journey and each moment filled me up with memories! My husband always says, "How do you eat an elephant?...One bite at a time!" and the whole time I was away I just kept chanting, "Inch by inch every thing's a cinch!" Every time I'm struggling with my pain, I ask the Lord, "How am I going to get through this?!" and He always says, "One moment at a time my little darling, one moment at a time."
I guess the moral of this story is that you will get out of life exactly how much you take from it. Whether you charge into it with energy or crawl through it in pain, it doesn't matter how you do it. As long as you do it, you will learn, grow, laugh, cry, acquire and give, and that is just life....... one moment at a time.
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