There is a Time for Every Season Under Heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1

As the years have gathered my days, I've grown. I have come to a point in my life where I truly enjoy God! I let Him love me and I love Him back! I let Him comfort me and I then go and comfort others. I don't blame God any more but, I see Him in everything! The journey IS life, we will never arrive as long as we walk on this earth so I've learned to see each day, each moment as a chapter in my life's journal whether it be a great day or a dark season, God is in it with me.

I'm also aware that the enemy is always prowling about with one mission in mind, to rob me of my joy and to get me to doubt God. There are times when I lend ear to the whispered lies and I become ensnared. Not for the long lengths of time as when I was younger and thought God was responsible for pain and suffering. I've grown in the grace and knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and I find myself falling much less and for shorter periods of time. That's because I read God's Word each day and I have a personal relationship with Him!

I have struggled with worthlessness because of the things that happened to me in my life. Growing and healing is a process and He is teaching me about many things that I look forward to sharing! This blog is a place for my thoughts to find their voice! I hope you enjoy visiting here just as if you were going to a friends house.

Jesusdeevah is a name I chose because it reminds me that I am set apart, special, precious and treasured by my Father in Heaven! So much that He sent His only beloved Son, Jesus, to suffer and die for me! Then, on the third day He rose from the grave and conquered sin and death so that I could be with Him forever! The lie is that I'm worthless, the truth is that I am worth dying for!

John 3:16,17... For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life! God did not send His Son into the world to condemn it but to save it!

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Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Mosaic


I was explaining to my husband the other night how I've been feeling emotionally the last five years. I told him that I felt like I used to be a two sided mirror that reflected not only me but also God and the people around me. My life felt three dimensional and manageable. The last five years though have spiraled me into feeling like circumstances have tossed that mirror up in the air and upon landing, I smashed into a zillion pieces! It's as though any hope of putting myself back together is impossible! My memories are vague of how I used to be and that scared me to death! Then I realized (after 5 long years) that that is exactly what God wanted! It's not a disaster but a blessing, and God is in it to redesign me into something better!

Oh, how we fear change or the exposure of our fears, not just being revealed to others but being revealed to ourselves! This morning my friend and I were talking about just this and we concluded that we all dig our own holes. It may be circumstances out of our control that come along but what and how we deal with them determines how deep our holes become. "I" chose to react to my situations in a way that dug my hole even deeper, I chose to see my shattered life as broken rather than pieces of beautiful glass that God could rearrange into a fascinating mosaic that would bring new and exciting prisms to my life and to others! It's becoming so clear to me that God is not the one who destroys life but the one who takes our brokenness and puts us back together in a more perfect way!

The other day I was sitting on the couch recovering from my cold and feeling crumby. I said a quick prayer and asked God to show me His presence in my suffering and I kid you not, at that moment the sun beamed through my back shutters and hit this cut glass vase that I have and the entire room lit up like a disco ball! Tiny spots of light were all over the room because the sun not only hit one side of the vase but it pierced through and displayed a 360 degree light show! That has never happened before and I haven't seen it since! The sun, the shutters, the vase....were all perfectly aligned and God was in it! The pieces of glass were once a beautiful sheet that through brokenness became something more beautiful and magnificent! I usually take pictures of things like that but I was frozen in amazement and surrounded by Gods unexpected gift, I just sat and stared until it slowly disappeared.

Try to see your brokenness through this new prism of wisdom and truth! God will get you through your pain not over it and a new and more incredible you will emerge from the broken pieces! Yes, we may have dug ourselves some holes but try to see the journey of getting out of them as a gift and an adventure rather than a messy and unwanted task. Earthly light is sometimes blocked out by our being so deep under our messes but God's light can reflect and shine even in the darkness! Messy holes, broken glass, whatever state you are in....God can make it into a garden or a cut glass mosaic and you will find more joy in being a piece of His art than if you just choose to curl up and give up. Perfection is for heaven, making art from brokenness is what this time on earth is all about if you will just trust Him.

Psalm 37:39 But the saving of those who are right with God is from the Lord. He is their strength in times of trouble!

Psalm 146:8 ...The Lord raises up those who are brought down...

Psalm 71:20 You have shown me many troubles of all kinds, but, you will make me strong again. And you will bring me up again from deep in the earth.

Psalm 73:26 My body and my heart may grow weak, but God is the strength of my heart and all I need forever.

Psalm 42:11 Why are you sad, oh my soul? Why have you become troubled within me? Hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my help and my God!

Psalm 22:24 For He has not turned away from the suffering of the one in pain or trouble. He has not hidden His face from him, but He has heard his cry for help.

Suggested readings: The Book of Psalms (found in the center of your bible), Getting out of the Pit by Beth Moore, or any of her books! 
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